Current mood:

exhausted

yesterday was one week.

i did not even think about or acknowledge the fact.


all week i have been feeling guilty about not seeing my dad. i have seen him for, maybe, an hour since he left for work on monday. i missed him. i wanted to see how he is doing.

but today, i can't help but hate the fact it's saturday. no work. no alone time. no ability to write.


I am going to the lake this afternoon with Jenna. I haven't been to the lake in a very long time. it will be good. it is really good to see so much of her again. kayce was always jealous, and so i didn't get to see her but a few times in the last two and a half years.

next relationship i'm in I vow not to be such a spineless lump.

of course, that is a long way off. perhaps permanently postponed.


but between now and the lake, my dad wants to go to home depot, so i need to get dressed and stoned so i can make an appearance out in the world.