play a song for me [17 Jul 2009|03:34am] [ mood | lonely ] apparently i am not sleeping now. i want it to be a year from now, life to be normal.

play a song for me [17 Jul 2009|11:07pm] [ mood | alone ] i need to go to bed soon. i have to get up for work in the morning. body chemistry is an interesting thing. last week i slept nonstop, was awake maybe ten hours a day. this week i've been sleeping four or five hours a night. I feel like i have made some resolutions, even though I haven't actually consciously made any decisions. But I think I know how this is going to end up. I do need to begin making some changes, though. I need to return to life soon. I do not want to jinx anything, but I am beginning to feel my ambition coming back. slowly, by degrees. if i can just survive until the fall, everything will be okay. I want more tattoos soon. Maybe my House of Leaves tattoo. I am thinking of dedicating my left leg to quotes, and my write leg to lines of my own composure. i want to be covered in tattoos. I at least have that ambition going for me. my brand new tire is flat on my car. I need to fix that tomorrow after work. goddamnit. I need to fucking sleep. i probably need to ingest some sort of drug to help me acheive slumber.

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